Today was quite good, onli 2 hr plus of school today.. E-lab somemore..Lol.. FPath e-learning sounds quite interesting.. Haha. Anw my grandmother's condition is not very good..her condition has been deteriorating.. When i went to visit her ytd afternoon, the doctor had already spoken to my aunt..they were discussing whether to insert a tube in her to keep her more responsive or stay with the oxygen mask and shock her when her heart stops.. I was instantly stunned when i heard this..is like only waiting for her death.. I feel lk crying, but i couldn't.. I juz duno y.. =(( In the end, my dad and my aunt decided to put another tube in her instead.. Cos now she is very drowsy wif all da medicine and breathing wif the oxygen mask.. She is very weak.. That really pains me..When i was holding her hand, her hand was not at all lukewarm.. She held my hand v tight too..at that scene, i reali felt lk crying le..but i juz couldn't.. Then we decided not to go for the resuscitation or the shock thingy to sustain her, cos we would rather she able to communicate wif us and go in peace, then having her ribs shattered while trying to revive.. I really couldn't take these things very well..sadness overwhelmed me........... Although i m not a christian, i also liked christianity.. Peaceful, saint.. So pls god, let my grandmother be alright.....
Tomorrow muz reach sch by 9 and finish at 5..abit not used to it yet, as first wk still v slack.. Anw gotta work hard for all my modules le..i dun wanna procrastinate and leave it till last minute.. Haiz
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